Wednesday, March 23, 2016

Birthday thoughts

Wednesday, March 23, 2016

This past year was probably one of the hardest of my life. I never thought I'd lose my mom at such a young age. When she was diagnosed with colon cancer I really thought she was going to be ok. I really did. We couldn't go through all this suffering and not have a good outcome right? Wrong. My mom passed away surrounded by family and friends on October 26, 2015. I miss her everyday. Every single day.  You know how in Sex and the city Charlotte says: "I feel happy every day. Not all day but every day." That's how I feel about being sad. I'm sad every day, not all day but every day. There's not a day that goes by that I don't feel sad. This isn't meant to be a depressing post because amongst all that sadness I do feel happy. I have my family. I have my hubby and my little boo bear, Niko and another one on the way. We recently bought our first home and we are both working and are healthy. I have my dad and my siblings and my nephews. So yes a lot to be grateful for and I am. They bring me so much joy and I just have to realize that the pain I feel now is just one that I have to learn to live with. I smile every day. I'm happy everyday but my happy is different than a lot of people's for sure. I am thankful for another year and look forward to many more. I am thankful for my family and all the blessings.  I love you Mami and I know you're blessing us from above. xoxoxo 

Kesy, Mom and I at my baby shower Jan 2014
The one time my mom knit me all those scarves and hats
That onetime my mom made us all perm our hair
Mom happy at our wedding October 2009
Family at Graduation

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